20 years later...

What would I become after 20 years? Maybe a kind-hearted person? Maybe someone bad. No one knows it. Everyone will change, I've no exception too. I hope after 20 years, which is (33 years old) of me, would be able to be a hairstylist.
I believe I would be able to do it. I have faith in myself. :) Because I love to style new hairstyles. Whenever I went salon, I'll take note of how they cut, reborn? Or Coloring. 
I'm interested in hairstyling. Whenever I saw others with special hairstyles, I will try to learn it. I will give it a shot. If it doesn't work out, I will continue trying and trying, till it work out. 
I loves to style others hair, and also my hair, thats of course. I want it to be perfect for hairstyling. If there's just a little messy, I will re-do it. Till it's "perfect" to me. Others always say it's perfect enough. But I disagree with them. Everyone just can't stand me. 
This is me. I don't know what changes would I have after 20 years. 

New Hairstyles 0_0 (Shop @ JB!)

Hello! :) Just bought something from JB, Pasar Malam :)
Something to style my hair :)
This few days, busy styling new hairstyles.
Whenever I'm unhappy, I will try to style new hairstyles. 
If it works, it's good. 
If it doesn't, I can never have smile. 

There's once, I wrote a Chinese composition.
The title is, " 20 years later".
I don't know why. But I just gracefully took a pen and a paper to write. 
Although, it's just a simple practice. 
But for me, I took it very seriously. 
Would you want to know what I wrote about? :)

No idea Sad, Happy

It's a start of a new day again. 
Time flies.. 
These few days, things happened one after one. 
I've no idea whether I'm happy or sad.
Sometimes, bad things happen just right after good things. 
My friends, always use me. 
I would like to know.
But seems like, I can never know the reason. 
I've decided to create a blog for Mdm Wu. 
Although there's already a book for her. 
But I don't know why I just want to create a blog for her.
If she really can see this blog, I'm very happy.. 
I really hope that she could see it.. 

Let it off.. Let it go.. Let it be past..

I just don't get it why must Licia always say bad things about me. 
Is it that nice to say others? 
I don't think so. 
It's sad when others knows about it.. 
I'm really really very sad and disappointed to know.. 
I'm sad, but I tried my best to be happy.
I tried my best to show Smiley Face to others.
Just to let others to be happy. 
But do you know, whenever I'm sad,
I just can't force myself to be happy.
Cus I will tears.. 
I really don't want to tears.. 
I just want to let it off.. 
I really want to just let everything go..
Let everything past. 
Let bygones be bygones.. 
I don't want to talk about it anymore..

Lies..

I hate lies. But why, some people just love to lie.. 

Sometimes they lied to me, I know. 

But they thought that I've no idea about it.

I just ignore it because I don't want to lose our friendship. 

Maybe you don't treat me as your friend? 

But, I treat you as one. 

Whenever you make use of me, I don't mind.

Because I don't want to ruin our friendship. 

But when did I make use of you? 

No, I didn't. I didn't use you before.

Never. 

But why? 

You hate lies, I know.

I hate lies too. 

But I just choose to ignore it. 

I don't bother about it.

I don't even care about it.

Because I know. 

I know that you didn't mean it. 

I forgive you again and again.

But why must you treat me this way? 

I just can't understand.. 

I can never understand I think... 

Foolish

I wonder why am I so foolish. 

Whenever someone asked me to do something, I will just follow.

I don't reject them.

Cus I don't wanna let others to be disappointed.

But why others always does this to me? 

Whenever they does this to me, I will be disappointed too. 

Why can't they just put themselves in my shoes? 

If I does this to them, they will also be disappointed. 

They will also be sad. 

So why can't they just think for others? 

I just can't understand them. 

Wonder.. x.x

I'm wondering if I should create a blog for Mdm Wu? 
But it's too late. I've already wrote it in a book.
If I create a blog, maybe it will be wasted.
Or my book for Mdm Wu will also be wasted.
Writing it by myself, it's sincere.
If I type it, it's not. 
So, maybe I should keep it the same way?
Continue to write. Anyway I loves writing.
Maybe I shall just treat this blog as normal diary. :) 

-Joanne

Why?

Why must everyday put on blame on me? 
I did nothing wrong. 
I can't stand anymore. 
But when I say out, you will scold me. 
Why?? 
If this continues, I'm gonna be crazy some other days.
Whenever you put on blame on me, I'll be unhappy. 
Whenever you put on blame on me, I don't complain. 
Whenever you put on blame on me, I controlled my tears. 
Not letting it to drop.. 
But why? Must you force me till I fall? 
Must you be so hard-hearted? 
I just can't understand...